Up, up and Away! Its a Protein Bar!

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First things Ahoy!

We're all up and applied. Barring any bad delays (please please please let me make the deadline which is today), and I sent the package by DHL last week. As long as it doesn't get lost or my registered race partner and I didn't screw up in out application, its out of our hands.
It would suck not being able to make it because of the disqualification like misinformed applications, incomplete entries or over the 3 - minute video limit.
Which reminds me ... its on YouTube!

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And thank god I disabled public comments posting, the pieces of crap commentary I've filtered. I half expected shitheads to post and humanity has reassured me there are real shitheads out there ... That and a healthy dose of people who believe their words are smarter, more observant and more valid that others.
All I can say is that, until they've the gumption to try actually try it out for themselves or see how difficult enough to put the effort into applying, there really are validating themselves very well. And I'm putting it as mildly as I can now.

And for everyones information - Vince is a really good friend and I want to thank his long time boyfriend, Brian (Oh gawd, has it been like .... years since they've been together!) - for helping us film us.

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Work

So work has been a bit of a pester.
Then again, I've been trying to do some of my work early by a month to make the coming months lighter in workload. Sigh - pay now, enjoy later?

Budget

Ok, so the pay hasn't changed.
Job offers aren't rolling in and the one that I've found - its still in KL (Ampang and otherwise), but thats' really still the problem. One of the main reasons I want to change jobs is the distance (which eats a huge hole in my budget!).
Followed by wanting to work for a profit-based company again. There' are pro's here but they are kept ub check by the wasted time in traffic and money in petrol and tolls.
On Chap Goh Meh last Thursday, I intentionally left work a half hour early to make Reunion Dinner and still got home 2 hours late ...
Bah - Hum - Bug ...
And I just filed for taxes ...
And I need to vote ...
My darn annual car payments (insurance) is coming soon - which makes me wonder if the money I've saved will help me purchase a laptop ? new computer + out-coming fav MMO / AgeofConan? an actually holiday trip to Thailand? a nest egg for whatever freaky emergency that might emerge later?

On the other hand, I've actually managed to save three times as much as I usually do this month! Thanks to it being a SHORT month and CNY.

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Year of the Gym Rat

And as a promise to myself - I will be joining a gym after my birthday ... in ... I was gonna say a couple of days, but its crept up way too fast - Tomorrow in fact.
I'm reassuring myself not to worry - that I've actually budgeted for it.
But to be honest, its a 70/30 that I'll keep payments. But it needs to be done.

I'm starting to not like myself - yes, its the dip in the sine/co-sine wave again. But I seem to be taking it better without a lot less drama than in my teenage youth sans the reckless emotional abandon (which I nostalgically miss).
And to some degree, I know that going to the gym again will help me deal with things, especially myself. I always thought I'd be disillusioned going to the gym before with all the wonderfully hard work of the people there to look good and feel healthy. Ranging from the heath conscious to the vapid gay poster boys of the city.
But I didn't.
As long as I knew what I was there for - I felt good.
And thats a feeling that doesn't come by very often.

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Prose

Writ and write
no longer defines
the phrases and turn
of words refine
no moss for rolling stones.

Tide and pride
tilt high and low
Tally sins and glory
Tell me to go.