Swinging Doors

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Closing time
This past weekend Saturday was one of KL's earliest gay clubs closing night. It was decided they would have their swan song on their 5th year anniversary after 11 years of service to the LBGT community.
Well, sort of.
Although it started out as the risque 'ZigZag' (with its first all male stripper show) about 11 years ago that was reopened after being shut down (for the strip fest), as Liquid a year later I think. It was a bar and dance club.
Until it bought up the spaces above it and opened up Disco dance club and maintained Liquid downstairs as a bar and lounge. This expansion lasted for the last 5 years. With a prominent history and rocky lifespan, it slowly dwindled as recently flashier gay spots in the heart of KL opened up. Other venues over the recent years also opened up to mixed gay/straight nights of clubbing.
So this was their swan song. It wasn't even a packed night for a closing, much less a anniversary night. No more annual Mr Liquid parties, no more 'school' nights and foam parties in that space. It was a comfortable crowd but one would have expected a much grander crowd for closing night ...

As is, Disco dance club is closing and as announced, 'Liquid' will be moving to another location. Let's hope for the better.

Daring
On a whim, after an early night, after the club's swan song.
I went to a very well known gay cruising park somewhere in Cheras (it was called 'Lost World') with my friends and guides. I had never been there although I've heard a plenty about it. Oh it was a very NICE park indeed!
Although I must admit, I was terrible at cruising :( even with the aide of expert more experienced friends with me. but the walk at night was lovely in such a nice park.
I'll resign myself to the fact that any one of these one night stand / cruise / bathhouses type gay activities that I'm just no good at.

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Prose

Revolving Revolutions.
We move full circle forward, which makes no sense.
Not to me, not to few others too I hope.
Or else I'd mope.
At the state of things.
At the state of government.
I'll weep and laugh in silent mirth and ironic humour.
And come full circle.
At least I can't step back, becuase it means I'l only moving forward.
Or is it the other way around.
Help me.

Muse Lovers

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Nothing fancy.
Just wanted to share two amazing new / latest singles from my books
of the most talented young male singer / songwriter / producers.
And yes, I would sleep with them in a heartbeat.

JC Chasez's "You Ruined Me" Alb: "Kate" Release: Summer 2007
Underrated composer / producer of the ex-famed N'Synx

Wang Lee Hom, Alexander 12th album, "Change Me (改變自己)". Release: July 13th 2007
Through this album, Leehom promotes the issue of global warming and eco-awareness.

... and I would consider selling my soul if these two could have a long lasting happy romantic relationship with each other .... sigh ...

Googer-realla

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Busy busy
Intentions and all that.
I'll be taking a leap. I think I'll treat myself to that at least once a year, or on the occasional. Feels ... good for the soul, mine. Like I haven't experienced wild abandonment before! Well, not totally anyways.
I'll be attending an art / DJ music thing under CUM (Creative United Movement) - by Lucideas someplace in KL called 'Palate Pallet". Should be interesting, and maybe I'll meet some people there that help in future personal projects. No harm eh, I juts hope there's not too much social mingling ... I don't last too long in those crowds.
Oh, I forget to mention - its tonight.
Tomorrow night, I'll be following my good friend Vince to a meeting or discussion for Malaysian Gay Writers at the Central Market Annexe. Should prove to be interesting, and hopefully some new insight will be found. We shall hope, no?
I'm all for encouraging Malaysian gay writer and Content thats relevant to it!
On Saturday - I forget what I need to do at night now ... but After Work - there's a bloody good chance I'll be trying out for "One in a Million" singing contest auditions again at Berjaya Times Square.
Yea for raising the age limit to 32 !

Friendly Consideration
I've mostly resigned myself to knowing I will rarely get company for my crazy adventures anymore. it actually takes effort (who knew) for someone to say yes to accompanying me while I go tryout auditions, take random walks around KL, check out gallery launches and stuff. Primarily because it no longer feels genuine for some individuals.
At the back of my head, I think it'd be nice to ask them - and then I wonder at all the times I've been passed over, turned down and excluded ... and then, in a nonchalant manner, I'll wave it off.
I need to find new people as friends. And I mean real friends. I've assumed too much already on the basis of friendships. I can't prostitute the meaning of what a friendship should be anymore. Proximity doesn't count.
Effort does, as do consideration and thoughtfulness (well at some point, any point!)

And ... I should find more friends my age.

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Fewmets Grace

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Body Utopia

I heard a line from a series, and I believe it was in comic reference to one of the qualities of being a urban gay man. “… having unrealistic body expectations …”
Now that struck a familiar chord. Though in jest, it implied something bad.
Is it?

Now, although I’m unfortunately lacking in the muscular obsessive dept., and sometimes I really wish I was more obsessed and doggedly determined about it, I know I won’t ever get the PornStarBody (PSB). I mean, what business can I make from there, certainly there’s no legitimate local thriving male gay adult theatre I can audition for.
And I certainly can’t be a model on physique alone. I don’t have the height nor face nor sense of listening explicitly to direction.
So, in all – I can’t seem think having some PSB goals as a bad thing. Its too bad, that it costs so much, both financially and time. The food (diet), the consistent gym hours, the everything … which makes more sense if it were a PSB-reliant JOB as well, but its not the case. And I’m sodden sad again.

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Because this next part is extraordinarily long, I'll only be putting up s short excerpt.
The full story can be read here.

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Confessions of a Drama

"Trying to feel included, or at least waiting to be invited.
I felt like a ghost in the wall sometimes, wishing for a thought. Maybe they’ll think of asking me to come out and play.
There’s nothing to apologize for. There’s nothing to forgive, no one did anything wrong. All I wanted to be was a devoted friend, and if I said or did anything unsettling, I didn’t mean it.
I told them every night, I told everyone in the production every night.
But I was drowned out."

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Confessions of the tired

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Thats it Gentleman.