-----Body Utopia
I heard a line from a series, and I believe it was in comic reference to one of the qualities of being a urban gay man. “… having unrealistic body expectations …”
Now that struck a familiar chord. Though in jest, it implied something bad.
Is it?
Now, although I’m unfortunately lacking in the muscular obsessive dept., and sometimes I really wish I was more obsessed and doggedly determined about it, I know I won’t ever get the PornStarBody (PSB). I mean, what business can I make from there, certainly there’s no legitimate local thriving male gay adult theatre I can audition for.
And I certainly can’t be a model on physique alone. I don’t have the height nor face nor sense of listening explicitly to direction.
So, in all – I can’t seem think having some PSB goals as a bad thing. Its too bad, that it costs so much, both financially and time. The food (diet), the consistent gym hours, the everything … which makes more sense if it were a PSB-reliant JOB as well, but its not the case. And I’m sodden sad again.
I heard a line from a series, and I believe it was in comic reference to one of the qualities of being a urban gay man. “… having unrealistic body expectations …”
Now that struck a familiar chord. Though in jest, it implied something bad.
Is it?
Now, although I’m unfortunately lacking in the muscular obsessive dept., and sometimes I really wish I was more obsessed and doggedly determined about it, I know I won’t ever get the PornStarBody (PSB). I mean, what business can I make from there, certainly there’s no legitimate local thriving male gay adult theatre I can audition for.
And I certainly can’t be a model on physique alone. I don’t have the height nor face nor sense of listening explicitly to direction.
So, in all – I can’t seem think having some PSB goals as a bad thing. Its too bad, that it costs so much, both financially and time. The food (diet), the consistent gym hours, the everything … which makes more sense if it were a PSB-reliant JOB as well, but its not the case. And I’m sodden sad again.
-----Because this next part is extraordinarily long, I'll only be putting up s short excerpt.
The full story can be read here.
|| GreaterDispel ||
Confessions of a Drama
"Trying to feel included, or at least waiting to be invited.
I felt like a ghost in the wall sometimes, wishing for a thought. Maybe they’ll think of asking me to come out and play.
There’s nothing to apologize for. There’s nothing to forgive, no one did anything wrong. All I wanted to be was a devoted friend, and if I said or did anything unsettling, I didn’t mean it.
I told them every night, I told everyone in the production every night.
But I was drowned out."
The full story can be read here.
|| GreaterDispel ||
Confessions of a Drama
"Trying to feel included, or at least waiting to be invited.
I felt like a ghost in the wall sometimes, wishing for a thought. Maybe they’ll think of asking me to come out and play.
There’s nothing to apologize for. There’s nothing to forgive, no one did anything wrong. All I wanted to be was a devoted friend, and if I said or did anything unsettling, I didn’t mean it.
I told them every night, I told everyone in the production every night.
But I was drowned out."
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3 comments:
*hugs*
It's going to take some getting use to, not driving to Sentul every day.
*huggie huggies*
it's a cruel, cruel gay world out there! unfortunately, the young and the restless gay lads coming out each month have been spoon-fed a rich diet of sexy twinks, muscle marys with visible abdomenial muscles!
To that, it's the epitome of the best man meat around! and those of us who do not fit that "market" fall between the cracks and are sometimes ignored.
but hey, sell what you have..i have my chub chaser market and you have your twinky market and sugar-daddy market!
look, you need some skin moisturiser and a good set of face cream just to loosen up your...ehrm...dull and tired skin!
used daily and you can hide your age-spots well!
i know..we is old.. or approaching that no-play zone! ahahahaha!!
sad that most gay men I know think that turning 30 is an end of the world for them and they will continue to deny that they have approached the hill over 30..always twenty-something!
blech!
ah well...unless you start doing your own amateur porn... not much chances of being a fluffer or porn star herelah!
ttfn
Vince
Zee Bra
Hugsies!!! :D
Vince
I guess it is somewhat the matter of age as well.
But all in all, I think you can maintain you chub status for quite a while, while as you put it.
My status in the twinkie sugar daddy market begins to dwindle as the age catches up and unless I have a financial windfall- I'm unlikely to end up on the hot sugar-daddy dept. either.
I'm getting usurped out of the gay market by age .... dang.
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